( mafuyu listens, takes everything in- the comforting touch she hasn't felt in so long, his words... why is it that she's only getting these explicit comforts and reassurances in this hell?
when she tries to speak, nothing comes out. so for a little bit, she'll just cling to noah and cry.
even if she thinks she kind of hates that, actually? )
( maybe it would have but a bitch is still touch-starved and being fed. ... and has been awakened to the fact that she needs hugs. you will be giving her more. this is not optional.
eventually, those painful sobs die down to quiet hiccups, and her throat hurts again. her head, too. her eyes always sting after crying... people say that crying helps release the pain, that you'll feel better afterwards. she's not sure if she believes it. )
... Do you think your brother could have escaped that life...?
He wanted the best for me, [Noah backpedals,] and to him, maybe that was through becoming a Master.
Or maybe, he just wanted to become a Master to escape. Masters are supposed to cut ties with their families, from what I'm told. He might have seen that as a way out, but I don't... I don't know.
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when she tries to speak, nothing comes out. so for a little bit, she'll just cling to noah and cry.
even if she thinks she kind of hates that, actually? )
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Honestly, he doesn't mind. He used to be
still kind of isa crybaby. Like, throw that toxic masculinity shit out, this man cries all the time.Maybe it would've been better if he gave her a real hug, and not a weird side hug, though.]
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eventually, those painful sobs die down to quiet hiccups, and her throat hurts again. her head, too. her eyes always sting after crying... people say that crying helps release the pain, that you'll feel better afterwards. she's not sure if she believes it. )
... Do you think your brother could have escaped that life...?
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[Er— uh—]
He wanted the best for me, [Noah backpedals,] and to him, maybe that was through becoming a Master.
Or maybe, he just wanted to become a Master to escape. Masters are supposed to cut ties with their families, from what I'm told. He might have seen that as a way out, but I don't... I don't know.
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( this is something even she can see, just from how noah talks about him. )
... You don't have to know. I don't know why I asked.
( yes she does. but she doesn't know if she'll believe any answer if she asks, 'do you think i can escape'. )